In my teenage years, I didn't understand the sacredness of being a pilgrim, Heaven wasn't the goal, Jesus wasn't everything to me, besetting sins soon became sins I was settled in. If I had just accepted the mindset of Christ, would I have had to cry myself to sleep? Would I have had to go to Boarding School? Would I have had to take hellish intrusive thoughts in my stride? Would I have had to lock myself in my room for months? Would I have had to run away from home? Would I have had to flip burgers for a living? Would I have had to be a victim of the demonic girl? Would I have had to be homeless? Would I be obese and diabetic like I am now? Would I be mentally ill and on meds like I am now? Would I be unemployed like I am now? Would I be living in a shared rental like I am now? Would I have a car that wasn't bought second hand?
In so many ways, I let God down, the fruit of living merely for my own desires, was indeed bitter!
But this is not the way my story has to end! Jesus came my way… When He called me, it wasn't merely for ministry, it was for everlasting love! So tell me, how can I walk away from?
Will I be able to lose all that weight? Will I reverse my diabetes? Will I ever buy a new house? Will I ever buy a new car? Will I land that job? Will they find a cure for Schizoaffective disorder? Will the demonic girl come clean? All I know, my love for Jesus comes with no strings attached, and I am now living life under His guidance…